Some might say to have doubt means to have a lack of faith in God. John Wesley, founder of the Methodist movement, was often plagued by this notion. In his earlier ministry, Wesley was plagued by feelings of inadequacy when it came to matters of faith. Even though he had been a Christian all of this life, he continued to struggle finding faith that would ward off any notion of doubt. Although Wesley led a life of devoted faith to God, he never rid himself of doubt.

Faith does not banish doubt; rather, the two co-exist in all of us. Many of us have been taught to believe that faith is a one-time decision. Once we say “yes” to God, there must be total and complete certainty for the rest of our lives. As you have most likely discovered by now, faith doesn’t work that way. Faith is not a one-time decision; rather, it is a decision that we make everyday. As new situations present themselves, our faith is challenged and up for renewal.

In this scripture, Thomas has been told by the other disciples that Jesus is not dead, but is alive and they have seen him. Thomas could not believe it. He needed to see this for himself; he needed proof. Because of his disbelief, Thomas has been unfairly called “Doubting Thomas.” Up to this point in the Gospel story Thomas has been courageously devoted to Jesus (11:16) and theologically alert (14:5). He is already a faithful disciple; but here we see him converted again. His recent doubt doesn’t negate the sincerity of his faith; but shows us that faith is a journey, not a destination we arrive at once and for all.

Jesus responds to Thomas by appearing to him in order that he may see and believe, but he tells the disciples, “Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have come to believe” (20:29). The original disciples had the privilege of being with Jesus while he was still alive and after the resurrection. Jesus’ words are not intended to comfort the original disciples, but are meant to reassure us. This scripture reminds us that we too can have a strong faith, despite our inability to see Jesus first-hand.

For your reflection: In what situations do you doubt God most? On a scale of one (low) to ten (high), where does your faith currently fall? What do you need to happen in order for your faith to be strengthened?